Am I being brainwashed?
Are they getting under my skin?
Poisoning my thoughts
With what they’ve lived by for years?
It is like
The things I thought were important
No longer mean anything
The dreams that I once dreamed
Are fading away
The life I envisioned
Doesn’t seem like what I want now
It’s like I’m losing myself
In the expectations of society
Making me feel that
What I love to do
Is not right
That I shouldn’t be doing it
Or wanting it
And it makes me feel worse
But this is not what my heart tells me
My heart tells me to stay strong
To fight and not to give up
And the things I desire can become reality
Then I ask my heart,
“How can I keep on fighting,
When it’s not what the majority tells me?”
They tell me, “It is pointless to work hard”
They ask me, “Why do you even do that?”
They tell me not to have my own dreams
And that I should give up on everything I love
Heart, I don’t get it!
I don’t know what to do!
I’m filled with these feelings that I can’t name
I’m too confused
Torn between what I want
And what they tell me is right
But isn’t it supposed to be my life
Aren’t I the one who should decide?
When will they leave me alone?
When will they let me rest?
It is my life, whether I make it or break it
I’m not ruining anyone else’s life
I will only ruin mine
Heart, tell me what to do please!
Because I’m so damn lost right now!
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