There is a lump
In my throat
That I can’t ignore.
There is a feeling
In my chest
That I don’t understand.
I slow down and take a step back
In the fast world that’s around me.
I look at people coming and going
Trying to make a living.
It all moves so fast
And I no longer see any faces
Just figures passing by quickly.
Something about it feels odd.
Not long ago,
I was as busy as them
But I have been absorbing a lot.
Absorbing way too much negativity.
I have been holding back for so long
That I am becoming full
And the container of my emotions
Can no longer contain those gloomy feelings.
I take another step backwards
And sit on a sidewalk
Letting go of all that I’ve been feeling
Through the rivers from my eyes.
I have to admit
Even I am shocked
At the amount of tears I shed
And the amount of unwanted feelings.
I sat there and didn’t stop my tears
For any reason.
I cried and cried
Until the container of my emotions
And ready to be filled once again.
Only then I felt a relief
That I hadn’t felt in weeks.